Vinnie Jones has actually said he still “struggles to comprehend” going to sleep on his own 4 years on from the death of partner Tanya.
The couple had actually been wed for 25 years when Tanya died aged 53 in 2019 following a six-year fight with skin cancer.
The previous footballer remembered just recently visiting her tomb on what would have been their wedding event anniversary and revealed that he is still in the thick of grief, branding it “f***ing exhausting”.
Speaking to Stuff NZ, Jones, who has actually looked for help from a psychologist, shared: “[Grief] is a ghost, it’s a blanket. It wraps around you and it pulls you down. You don’t know when it’s going to happen, why it happens. It just happens.
“You’ve got to try and get your head above water, breathe in as long as you can because you know you’re going to be pulled under again.
“You got to give people what they want, or you f*****g drown. It’s f***ing exhausting [Sometimes I want to] build a 50 foot wall around to keep everybody out and keep me in,” the 58-year-old included.
“My spirit may be broken inside, but I think I’ve got enough understanding and adequate experience to manage it.”
Tanya passed away at their home in Los Angeles 6 years after being detected with cancer malignancy, the most severe form of skin cancer, in 2013.
The star has actually formerly spoken openly about grieving his late partner and revealed that he “talks to her all the time”.
He informed the Sun: “I talk to her all of the time. Constantly, every day. We have a little chat when I’m making my bed.
“This morning I went, ‘There you go babe, look’, and it wasn’t my best bed-making, so I re-did it.”
Following his partner’s death, the movie star offered their LA home, stating it would be too hard to live there without Tanya and purchased the property next door, where Kayley, Tanya’s child from a previous relationship, lives.
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